There must be some kind of way out of here

Written on January 26, 2016 (the night before)

I don’t want to write much, so I’m gonna keep it short.

I went to see Dad, shook him awake (which I’m honestly shocked that I was able to do), gave him a kiss on the cheek, and he kissed my cheek. Lately he hasn’t really been able to do that so I was glad he did. He was mostly out of it while I was there, and Bev mentioned that the nurse said he’s in a semi-comatose state.

Every once in a while, he would wake up and be anxious or agitated. Really the only thing he said all night was “let me out of here.” Over and over and over. Every time he woke up, that’s what he said.

While he was sleeping, I sang him “All Along the Watchtower,” and God my voice is awful but I like to think that he could maybe hear it or that it kept him calm.

Before I left, I told him I’d be back to see him tomorrow, and I kissed him on the cheek and told him I love him.

And he said it back.

2 thoughts on “There must be some kind of way out of here

  1. Jasmine Johnson January 26, 2017 / 1:21 pm

    I’ve been trying to remember the last time I talked to Dad and I can’t. I even looked up our phone records from last January, which didn’t help at all. There was one really good call on the 16th that I remember vividly, another on the 19th, and then…nothing. And by “nothing” I mean that I started calling your phone while you were with Dad instead of calling him directly. Do you remember those calls? He was really weak by then so we didn’t really have conversations, but I want to remember anyway.


    • Jade January 26, 2017 / 1:46 pm

      I remember you called on Monday or Tuesday, right? I don’t remember him saying much of anything, at least not clearly. He couldn’t hold the phone, so we held it for him, and you talked to him for a while. I don’t think he was very responsive. All the details are so fuzzy.


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